Pendosa

Petir menggelegar di malam hari
Hujan deras mengguyur kota
Hantaman petir yang mengagetkan semua insan
Alarm mobil yang tiada hentinya berdengung
Ada yang sadar..
Ada pula yang sudah terlelap dalam mimpinya..
Guntur ini bisa dianggap sebuah petanda
Petunjuk bahwa semesta sedang murka
Atas kelalaian dan ketidakpedulian manusia
Manusia-manusia yang terhanyut pada drama kehidupan
Kehidupan yang berisi suratan takdir yang tak bisa dipahami
Setiap makhluk hanya menjalani isi buku kehidupannya masing-masing
Takdir memang tak dapat dihindari
Akan tetapi manusia masih diberi kesempatan untuk memilih
Berbagai pilihan untuk bereaksi terhadap kehidupan ini
Ada yang sudah nyaman menjadi pendosa
Pendosa cerdik yang membuat semuanya menjadi indah
Akan tetapi hitam tidak dapat bercampur dengan putih
Suatu saat setiap makhluk akan dihakimi termasuk para pendosa
Sudah siapkah engkau?




~Selene

Purify

There’s one sinner

Deaf to all true words

Take all the risks

Based on her belief

One sin lead to another

Until it hits it’s rock bottom

Life is hard

Words are harsh

Universe has punishments

I seem on my very limit

Tears poured out

My heart broken to pieces

I shout my agony to you

My deep sorrow and repentance

It’s all killing me inside

All the best I had is gone

You’re the only one I had left

Purify me heart

Wash my dirty soul

There I could be pure to you

-Selene-

consequences

You warned me
I ignored
I was flooded with my imagination
Beliving myself
that I was living my dream
A dream that lead me to nothing
A void dream that give me
hopelessness
Now I am sitting alone
looking at the sky with contrite heart
realizing I have to live with the consequences


~Selene.

The blame game

It is one of your speciality

Blaming other people

Showing them

You are always the right one

You keep blaming me

For everything that happens

It’s always been me

Your favorite words

It’s dancing between us

Rocking us Upside down

Should we put an end

Or resume this game...

~Selene

A while

I have to remind myself

for the thousand times

that life is short

This is only a while

nothing last forever

There is an end for everything

Why takes something seriously

if nothing is belong to me

I will leave everything at the end

I should end my tears

Yet I couldn't

life is getting hard each day

I always get what I don't expect

The one that I wanted always hiding

I really need your help to free me 

I should be grateful 

even for only one good thing in my life

Forgive and forget all the bitterness 

-Selene

Oneday

You told me once

You never believe karma

You always believe 

What you do want to believe

Yet I believe 

What goes around comes around

No matter what we did

It's always come back to us eventually

Life is not about showing yourself
Comparing that yourself is highter than others
It means nothing beside your pride
Pride that doesn't benefit others

I hope that oneday
You learnt your lessons
Life isn't always about yourself
Life is about giving and loving

-Selene

An Obidient Child

You told me

repeatly

I have to be strong

I have to be independent

Life is very hard

that I need to be tough

I need to be on my own

You keep telling me those

I have my own thoughts

Anything that reverse of what you thought

The underlying basic that always be the same

I want to live simply

There might be oneday

That I can reach my dream

Dreams that beyond your understanding

Because you never understand a single thing about me

I can't be your obidient child anymore

It's weird even to myself

I can't feel sorry anymore

I guess I am grown up more than I know

Destiny

Some people destinied to be a mother
They are blessed with children
Even marriage fall apart
They might not be the best wife
Yet they are very good mother

Some people destinied to be single
They choose not to get married for life
They might have not find the right one
They prefer to focus on their own passion
The purpose of their life

Some people destinied to be a lover
Promising to be there for each other
They bring the best of each other
They just being good together
They connect deeply like soulmate

Just a simple reminder
Whatever your destiny is
The rule of life is
Do not get attached

Anything could be gone
It is not our own life
Because life itself is a gift


~Selene

(Selene is my pen name)

Never be there

You give me stuffs
It's all fancy
Clothes
Wallets
Bags
Coats
Perfumes
Yet you forget one thing
You never be there
Whenever I need you the most

@A-02'18


(taken from my personal collection)
~Selene

Forget

Forgive and forget
That is formula of life
It takes years to understand
A whole life to make it worth

Forgetful is an option
Ignorant to feel the pain
Keep the faith while life makes us cry
Still smiling to sky each day

Forget what happens yesterday
Forget what happen to us in the past
Have hope for the future
Believe tomorrow will be better than today


Kind regards,

Selene

A Sister

We were born as sisters
Yet we are like fire and water
What do you see of me just the opposite of her
That's how peoples look at us

Every time i saw her
I heart her a lot
I want to be like her
Thinking and acting like hers

The world is just easy and simple for her
She let go everything she dislike
She forgets peoples's wrongdoing easily
She faces her life with courage and fearless

She knew what she want
She adapt well to her life with patience
She chosed to be happy
She lives in the way she's happy

She is confident of who she is
She never afraid to make mistake in her life
One thing she might never realize
That I admire her


~Selene

Maze

I walk through maze of life
There are many different ways to be chosen
Each way turn to different path
Path will eventually reach its end

I can not wait too long
I am starting lose this faith tremendously
If you keep your silence still
I am worry our track getting far away and disappeared

Love is the only thing I asked
I want to do everything based on love
Your love always best gift ever
Peace comes by sharing it to everyone

I need both faith and hope
The maze of life feel too weary without them
Please hold my hand tightly
Lets walk to this maze of life together

-Selene

Denial

Some peoples live in denial
The better way to say is most peoples are
The hard we try to be numb in many ways
Life might be beautiful and painless as they said

Some peoples said happiness is depend on our mindset
Some might find happiness after being hostage of suffering
As what we taught to believe
There is a rainbow after every storm

There is good quotes said
The good news is nothing last forever
The bad news is nothing last forever
We might find hope in this changing world

Many times I found myself in my world
A world that I prefer to be alone
Let me stay in a world that is only me and my beautiful music
I closed my eyes and wish I could live in both hope and denial

~Selene

My blue room

I once have a blue room
It is literally blue
It has all blue paint walls and blue curtains
Yet the furnitures, floor and ceiling are not blue

I love my blue room
It always been a gift to me
I find peace and happiness there
As far as I remembered

Mother complains it is too dark for a bedroom
Yet I am happy with the paints
I do not know the reason
It is just me..

I know I would not have that room again
It is now changed to white
I missed the way it looked back then
How precious my blue room to me

The blue room is true witness of myself
All of me..
If that room could speak and feel for me
I wonder what will be said and revealed


~Selene.

Silence

Silence is not golden
Yet silence is the better way than hurting others
I was being told that I have to stand on my own
Nobody helps even they know

Judging always been easier than understands
Nothing wrongs when you have no way of knowing
Everyone has to reap what they harvest
I have to live the life beyond my understanding

Words sharper than sword
Sword hurts the parts of body
Words hurts the deepest parts of the soul
Sometimes it never been cured

Falling is not an option
Rising is the only choice to survive
Peoples come when you have everything
When you have nothing, do they stay?


-Selene-

Night

It is night here
Thousand nights for me
Yet you still give me another night

I look at starry night
See the moon smiling back at me
Yet I still feel the same old darkness here

You give me choices in my life
Thousand nights been witness of my regrets and tears
Yet my sorrows stay in my heart

I sent you prayers
Thousand words seem not enough
Yet your answers are the ones i am looking for

I wonder where are you
Are you watching over me?
Yet i feel alone through thousand of nights



Good night,

Selene.

Nothing last forever

Nothing last forever..
Selamat malam, bloggers
Saya harap kalian baik-baik di manapun kalian berada
just a self reminder to all, nothing last forever..
kebahagiaan tidak bertahan selamanya, begitu pula kesedihan
kalau kata ibu saya, pintu saja berubah, apalagi manusia
ya benar, setiap orang berubah
akan tetapi, seberapa pun rumitnya perubahan itu, jangan sampai mengambil kebahagiaan dan kedamaian dalam diri kita.
Kedekatan dengan yang di atas sangat membantu di saat-saat sulit.
Seberapapun beratnya masalah kalian, jangan lupa berdoa ya. ini juga self-reminder buat diri saya sendiri.

Salam,

Selene.

Waiting

Who loves to wait?
Some peoples said waiting is boring, waiting is waste time, waiting is sucks,
Well they maybe right. I usually hate waiting too, i like to rush things
When now i suppose God wants me learn to wait is kinda pain in the ass really.
But i have to believe everything has purpose in it.
Like the old ones said,
"Good things come to those who wait"
There is times that we should wait and wait to get things that we prayed, hoped for.
Its not good if we keep pushing to rush things on our schedule, i mean, sometines we even can't do that if the time for the things is not yet.
Just trusting that everything has its seasons to happen.
Good luck guys and those there who struggles too.
Be patient and keep waiting.
Thats what i am doing too now, here and i am not sure until when.

I quote this from movie 'Dear John' Nicholas Sparks:

"When your struggling with something,

look at all the people around you and realize

that every single person you see is struggling with something,

and to them, its just as hard as what you're going through"

-Selene

Love

Hi bloggers, wherever you are, i hope you are fine and happy.
Now i want to talk about romance.
who doesn't like it?
Everyone of us need love.

either its from our family, friends, boyfriend, husband, etc.
everyone need love and love is universal.
with love, we will feel life is more meaningful
we will feel we can help someone and we are needed.
But of course, there is nothing perfect in this world,
peoples who takes love in different way, or wrong way in society views,
like having an affair, either its love or lust
either way, its all come to sins.
we might not have rights to judge but only God had.
Anyway, i love romance novels, same as well i enjoyed enlightened novels.
if we're doing something based on love, there will be no complains.
The problem is it might be hard to love someone who doesn't love us.
But well, it is more rewarded to love your enemies instead?

I was remembered of my friend who comes from 'unlove' family, which broken home or too many children, so he didn't get enough love or attention. He feels his life was torn apart and broken. But he still trying to learn to love or get love. to support and get support. to learn anything that he never had before.

I really think that is why we are all have in this world. we are all mean to love and be loved. Be kind.

I love you all.


yours faithfully,

-Selene.

Faith

When we were young, we were taught to keep our faith.

We walk by faith.

Faith means you trust in whatever you believe, 

that nobody could take it from you, whatever happens.

but that means nothing without examination

yes, life examinations.

only by examinations, there would be selection 

nature eliminations

those who endure the last, he/she really live by faith.

faith means trust without being seen

faith means trust without being known

faith means trust and calm and trust something big and something good ahead of us 

faith means never stop trusting 

faith means never give up

Today is my last day I saw my couple of years boss, 

i was there to pack my stuffs and say good bye to him.

He was so easygoing, unlike me who trying to keep my feeling while doing something logically have to be done soon (packing my personal stuffs).

When we are destined to meet somebody, 

there is destination where farewell happened

nothing last forever. happiness wont last forever, same as well as sadness.

while you with him/her, you should enjoying and make it to the fullest.

I am not talking about my boss, i am talking about people connection in general.

I believe we are destined to have purpose in life.

something that we do not understand now and hard, but by trusting everything is happened or destined for our great goodness, we will find happiness. never stop doing good and walk by faith.

I am talking to myself, too. this is reminder to myself. Life is too good to be wasted.

who knows what happens in 10 years time, one day i might or not might have a chance to see this post and remind myself or maybe laughing myself that why small things made me down. 

I want to be better person. 

I like word "Allegiant", ah yes, Theo James is very sexy man and handsome. but not because of that :)

the meaning of word "Allegiant" is 

To Veronica Roth, the term allegiant means"one who is loyal or faithful to a particular cause or person" 

from mr. google

Let us be faithful to what we trust and believe. 

I believe each of us has different life purpose.

I believe something good will happens in everyone life.

nothing is more than we can bear. 

always remember that "Life is beautiful"

peoples can always steal any goods and stuffs from you

but peoples can not steal your 'good' mindset, attitude and faith

I think that's what life's worth and good assets for yourself

that's the biggest thing you could give to yourself.

thats the end of my words for today.

love & peace,

-Selene-